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Posted on: Thursday, September 2, 2010
Posted at: 4:18 PM
Posted at: 4:18 PM
It's been almost about a year since I have really talked to my mom.
And even if we start talking again,she will say something to bring me down and we go back to square one again.
The thing is,whenever I'm around her;she will find something negative to say and then I will start to retort back to her.
The next thing she would say would be that I'm rude to her;etc.
Late yesterday afternoon,I was told by my current maid to call my previous maid becuase she wanted to ''talk'' to me.
She asked me out to go to sentosa with her this weekend to unwind.
When we were done with small talk,she asked how my relationship with my mom was now.
Why I'm not talking with my mother;etc.
Then,she proceeded to tell me that I can't behave this way because my mom is like that.
Her bark is worst than her bite and the reason she always gives me a hard time is because she wants me to do good in life.
And I shouldn't voice out my opinion to my mom and when she says negative shits about me,I should just stay quiet.
I told my previous maid that my mom shouldn't always demean me and bring me down.
Then my maid kind of patronize me by agreeing with me.
Next,she told me that my dad works hard for all of us as he is the only sole breadwinner of the family,and that I should do well in my studies and not disappoint my parents.
While she was telling me all this,I was in tears already,my voice was croaky as I was crying.
When my previous maid finished talking to me about that issue,she asked me if I could go to Sentosa with her this weekend.
She was like ''Go out la,enjoy yourself,don't always stay at home.''
But I turned down her offer and said that my N levels were coming up and that I had to study and maybe next time.
When we both hung up,my eyes were red and I tried to ask myself to stop crying.
But I just couldn't.
You know,when you tell yourself to stop crying,you just can't becuase you cannot control your feelings.
Then you try to wipe the tears away becuase you do not want others to know that you have been crying.
I did that.
I even tried smiling so that my face would return to normal.
When I finally composed myself,I wanted to be alone,but I ended up leaving my parent's bedroom and headed straight for the living room to my siblings.
Thank god they didn't realised that I have been crying,but I really wanted them to ask me why I cried.
The thing that got me really pissed was that my mom seem to have this assumption that my friends are of a bad infulenece and that I'm the way I'm now because of them.
But in truth,I have always been like this.
I'm the way I am now not becuase of my friends like my mom seem to assumed.
I'm the way I am now because of ME.
I am definitely not easily influenced;my friends are not bad influence,so fuck my mom's misconceptions;If I was easily influenced,I would already be smoking and doing drugs by now.
So fuck it if my mom dispproved of me becuase I am aiming to go to ITE.
One day I won't take this anymore. One day I will be old enough to do what I want to.
From now,I will do things as I deem fit.
No one is going to get to me anymore.
Fuck you if you have misconceptions about me.
Fuck your opinions,if I wanted your opinions,I would have asked you for it.
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